Photo of my father

I am Deng Huanhuan, 29-year-old, the only child of my parents. I live in 4-4,151 MingYuetuo, Guangyang town, Nan’an District, Chongqing Municipality. My father is Deng Fushou, who was born on January 2, 1952. Having completed junior secondary education, he worked as a lathe operator in the No. 26 workshop under Ship Repair Services in Chongqing Shipyard.

My father worked conscientiously and was famous for his superb skills. He had been elected an advanced worker in the factory for consecutive years and had been elected model worker of Chongqing municipality. My mother was a virtuous and capable woman. We enjoyed a happy family life.

In 1996, my father often felt tired and short of breath. He was out of sorts, coughing and breathing hard sometimes. He went to see a doctor and was told that those were the early symptoms of pneumonectasis. Doctors advised him against smoking and being overtired. My father accepted the advice, keeping on taking medicines and treatment. As a result, his condition was under control.

In early 1998, some workers in the factory began to practice Falun Gong. Rumor has it that Falun Gong was able to cure diseases. My father was tempted by the rumor. He bought the book Zhuan Falun and some cassette tapes, and began to practice at home with an intention to cure his disease.

I was only 15-year-old then, and knew little about Falun Gong. I thought it was a sort of Qigong and was a way to keep fit. Gradually, I came to realize the harm of Falun Gong. I originally thought my father took Falun Gong as a method of physical exercise. But I was afraid when my father got obsessed with it. He felt there was a Falun (the Wheel of Law) in his abdomen, and believed what Li Hongzhi said. "Birth, old age, disease and death are preordained," Li Hongzhi claimed. "They are karma retributions. Taking medicines merely presses back karma, making it impossible to cleanse one’s body; so medicines are not able to cure diseases. Only by practicing Falun Gong can karma be dispelled and illnesses be cured completely. "

Since my father began to practice Falun Gong, he stopped taking medicines. He got up early in the morning to practice and did not worked as hard as before. When he came home, he cared nothing about our housework, simply reading the book Zhuan Falun.

Both my mother and I felt that my father had changed a lot. He was less optimistic and open-minded than ever before. He seemed a bit dense. He spent all of his spare time reading books, sitting in meditation and practicing Falun Gong while neglecting my mother and I. We felt worried about him. What on earth was Falun Gong? How could it bring such a big change to a person? We advised my father to stop his practice, to believe in medical science, to follow doctors’ advice and to take medicines as needed. But my father did not accept our advice at all.

In 1999, Falun Gong was outlawed by government. My mother and I were stunned and frightened when we watched the bloody scenes from TV about how Dafa disciples sought for their so-called consummation. We advised my father to give up Falun Gong on the grounds that none of diseases could be cured only by practicing Falun Gong, and that it was impossible for a person to become a superman. We told him it is stupid to continue practicing Falun Gong, which may only lead his disease to get worse. But my father got too deeply involved to extricate himself. He no longer went out to practice, but kept on his practice at home everyday.

By the year 2005, my father felt short of breath even when he went up a slope. His cough did not take a turn for better. All of our relatives and friends suggested that he take a good rest and stop his practice. But my father refused to take these suggestions. Instead, he thought it was his failure to practice well that led to the situation that his karma and disease had not been eliminated. During the annual physical examination held by the factory, doctors warned my father that his disease may get worse without treatment, and may even turn into lung cancer. But my father was too occupied by the idea of Falun Dafa to accept the advice. He retired ahead of schedule due to the poor performance of the factory. Since then, he did nothing at home but practice Falun Gong.

One evening in July 2008, my mother and I went out to dance, while my father stayed at home practicing Falun Gong. When we came back home, we found that he was lying on the floor and had lost consciousness. We sent him to Donggang Hospital at once. Doctors diagnosed that my father’s loss of consciousness was caused by difficulty in breathing. Results of physical examination revealed that my father was suffering from serious pneumonectasis. Upon suggestion from all of our relatives, my father was kept in the hospital to receive treatment. As a consequence. His disease was under control. When my father came back home, however, he did not learn any lesson. Instead, he kept on practicing Falun Gong.

At the end of 2011, my father’s disease acted up again. We sent him to hospital when he was suffering from hard breath. When he regained consciousness, he refused treatment and insisted on going home. My mother and I had to watch him in turn to prevent him from leaving the hospital secretly. But my father did not sleep at night. He sat in meditation on bed, practiced Falun Gong, recited passages from Falun Gong books with an aim to make up his mistake of receiving treatment in the hospital. He also threw his medicines away secretly. My mother and I were angry with his behaviors. The angriness sometimes made my mother burst into tears.

About 1:00pm on January 29, 2012, when my mother went out for lunch, my father pulled out his infusion needle with an intention to practice. But he fainted when he tried to sat up. He stopped breathing before doctors rushed to save him. My father was barely 60-year-old when he died…